I was just a little too stubborn when I turned my eyes away toward what my soul condemned. I watched as my heart changed it’s pattern, and the beating took over. My mouth played pretend. Oh Father forgive me, for I know just what I do. I can’t stop lying because it’s so hard to tell the truth. All my “i”s and all my “me”s keep changing into “you”s. The time slips on by and I do what I do. I guess I never paid much attention, I just turned my eyes from what I really should have seen. I thought, though my heart was in question, I could still spend my time on less important things. So Father, please forgive me for I know just what I’ve done. I’ve lived in this shadow, as it’s so hard to face the sun. And my eyes barely see in contrast with the light. Still the time slips right by, come what might. But please don’t leave me helpless, I can’t just turn around. I know I deserve this after all the things I’ve found. But the dark gets too hard and I cannot find the light when my doubt calls me out into the night.